Life got you down? Change it up!

Are you feeling overwhelmed and stressed? I sure was and kind of am still. I have had a lot of life changes in the last year. I am dealing with divorce, raising 5 kids on my own, and the death of the dog this last week. At times I really felt like I was going to break. I knew giving up wouldn’t be an option. I have all these kids who are depending on me to be their everything. After all, they are feeling stress and feelings too. As I sat on my deck looking up at the sky(rum in hand), I prayed to God for clarity. I prayed for a break. I just sat there and began admiring the clouds, feeling the sun on my face, smelling the air, admiring the atmosphere. I went from feeling like I can’t do a thing, to I got this! My house is more peaceful, the kids are all healthy, I have opportunities that are presenting themselves everyday, and I am healthy too. I know deep down I am capable. For a very long time I doubted myself. I would try hard and make things happen. I was successful, but somewhere I doubted me. Over the last 3 months, I have really found out how strong I am. I have taken control of my life(mostly) and told myself that I am worth it. Life is about creating yourself. Since my husband moved to Louisiana on July 1, I have really tried to make my life different. I am decorating the house the way I want to. I also realized it is important for the kids to have their own space and say in how it looks. After I changed up my room and space, I began working on the girl’s room. Elsa and Nadia both told me they wanted black walls. I have been hesitant on doing black walls. I have put a lot of thought and effort into it. Many people said don’t do that, they will be depressed. That is a sign of depression. I took Elsa shopping for new bedding, she picked out wall décor, and I bought Nadia new bedding as well. I wanted them to feel good at night. I wanted them to own their space. The fluffy pillows, cozy soft blankets that feel so incredibly good against your skin, the textures, patterns, and layers all create a luxurious hotel feel. My 8 year old now makes her bed every single day. Both of the girls sleep so much better at night now. The room is only half finished but it has already transformed their attitudes. The boy’s room is next. They are looking forward to this change too. They are working together to come up with a design plan. I want my kids to know I value their opinion. I value their creativity. If something doesn’t look right, it is just paint! Do it again! Life is about taking risks. It is about stepping out of that box you hold yourself in and try something new. After all, if you don’t, you will never know your potential. When I die, I want to die with no regrets. I want to be able to say I lived. I want to give my kids the tools they need to be successful in life, starting with them knowing their worth. I want them to know that if they make a decision that isn’t the best one, they can learn, and correct it. I don’t want them to feel like they can’t be themselves. Each and every child is so different. I enjoy seeing them flourish and be comfortable in their own skin. My kids know I love them and I try to show it to them by allowing them to be themselves.