Create! Create! Create!

I’ve had lots of doubt in my life about what I should do, where do I belong, and who am I? Finally, for once in my life I feel peaceful and that I belong right where I am. I am the type of person that needs to have freedom of thought, expression, and creation. I can’t just do the same thing over and over and make profits for someone else. I want to be in charge of my destiny. I will not leave it up to someone else to sum up my worth. If you are unhappy about where you are, what you are doing, or just feeling stuck, allow yourself to just be. Do something for others. Don’t set your expectations about where you should be in life. We are all traveling at our own pace and doing what we need to for ourselves. I made these greeting cards. I allowed myself to learn a new skill in origami clothing making. I had a vision and I put it into action. The result was I am was proud of my creation and now it’s on the shelves of my shop! I attached pictures! Don’t stand in your own way! Get out there and try things. Learn new skills and find out what you like! 

Let them talk.

I’ve learned no matter what I do in life, I can only control myself. I used to defend myself to the ends of the Earth when someone would say something untrue of me. Now I’m starting to learn not to waste my energy. Plain and simple, who gives a fuck! If you spend your energy, like I used to do(sometimes still do) you will drive yourself insane. You will be miserable. Do not allow others to drag you through the mud. You are worth more than they say you are. The one caveat to that is, you have to believe that you have worth. If someone says you are not good, let them. You don’t have to prove or justify anything to them. I instantly want to defend myself when this happens. If you try, they pull you in to their shit. Then you become instantly miserable. Just breathe, stay quiet, and continue to live a life that has value. Let them gossip because at the end of the day, they are the miserable ones. 


Switch gears when things get too tough to handle.

One of the greatest lessons in my life I’ve learned , is that no matter what happens, no matter what is thrown in my direction, I will be able to handle it. Have the faith in yourself and know that you have what it takes inside you, to get through any situation even when it seems like the only way out is death. I’ve battle ddepression before,  so I know just how incredibly difficult it is to get out of a deep dark hole. I’ve learned to switch gears in my brain when I start to think negatively. The way out of my hole is through creating things. I’m the kind of person that when I put my mind to something and I get so passionate about it, I will just continue forward like a freight train not worrying about anything. My vision is my vision and that’s all I can see sometimes. When I start to create something such as a work of art, even if I have no idea what I’m doing, I get so involved in that project that I’m able to relax. Most of my life I’ve suffered from insomnia. During those times I can’t sleep, I do think about things and about how I can improve the world. Creating new things, Whether it be thinking of a way to improve the world or improve the lives of others through some invention, I am able to channel my energy and make it a positive flow. Negative thoughts will bury you faster than you can ever imagine anyone ever doing to you. I know I’m my own worst sabotager. I would sabotage my own success in the past and I partly believe I did that because I didn’t feel I deserved success. I would be rolling right along making good money, in the groove of my work, and sabotage it. I did notice a pattern with my work, that was that I wasn’t really passionate about it. I did not see it as my calling. I know my calling in life is to help others and to help improve their state of mind. I can do that through my own negative experiences that I’ve learned to overcome. The mind is a powerful tool and if you don’t know how to use it properly, which I’m not an expert at, you could be sabotaging your own success and not realizing your own calling in life. Whatever you do in this life, make sure you put yourself into it. What I mean by that is do everything to the best of your ability and don’t forget to be yourself. I know I do not want to die saying I wished I had lived out of the expectations of others.  I’ve learned to let go of my children and what my expectations are of them and allow them to explore this world. We are all on our own journey and we all need different things. As I’ve said before, you are unique. Forge ahead and put your mark on this world. The world needs your perspective.


Creative minds are a little bit crazy!

Dare to be crazy, dare to dream, put it into action, and watch it fly! This life is a lot of hard work and the people out there that think they can change the world, will change the world. I truly believe you have to be a little bit crazy to have such wild thoughts and put them into action. It’s hard being told no all the time. Forge forward and stick with your vision. Believe in yourself. It takes thick skin or at least growing thick skin to be able to do this. When I stopped taking things so personally, although sometimes I do take things personally, I stopped caring about the negative noise in this world and in my head. I started to realize I was worth something. Like I’ve stated before and in other posts there are going to be people that are jealous of you and people that are the “negative Nelly’s” that will keep telling you know you can’t do this. Don’t listen to them. Do yourself a favor and continue to move forward with your vision. Not everyone sees like you do. I’m here to tell you that’s a good thing. I used want to be like everybody else, but now I’m happy I’m not. Every person in this world is unique and has a unique talent or skill. Dare to be different. The greatest inventors of this world were told they couldn’t do things. Steve Jobs is a great example of this. I read the book about him and I’ll tell you I learned a lot that I didn’t know before. He was very eccentric and out there with his ideas. He was unconventional in his thoughts-processes,  his actions, and a little crazy. He had vision and passion. As I look at what happened to Apple recently with their sales declining, my personal opinion is the company is dying because the founder died. Nobody sees Apple the way Steve did. You can’t buy passion. His passion for his company showed in his inventions and the way he marketed them. So go into this world, be unique. Show this world everything you’ve got to offer. Love yourself and most of all believe in yourself.


Punch fear in the face…

In my last post I talked about reinventing myself. One of my greatest fears was public speaking. I would think about how I project myself to my audience, how it looked to them, how they perceive to me, and what I looked like physically speaking. My fear of myself and of being myself tripped me up and every time I tried to speak. Recently, my boyfriend, told me to make videos for his nonprofit organization. The first set of videos were really rough. I could barely make it through 20 seconds. All I kept thinking about was what I was going to say as I was speaking and in the process of thinking about what I was trying to say,  I forgot to connect me to my audience. As soon as I allowed myself to be me on camera and not worry about my physical appearance, I started to get better and better in these videos. These videos were no longer about how I perceive myself to my audience. These videos were about the information I was trying to get out to them. The information came from my heart and I truly wholeheartedly believed in what I was saying. When we go through life being ourselves and being genuine to others, we become the true authentic person we should show the world we are. We all learn valuable lessons in our lives and I truly believe we are better off sharing it with others so they can learn from our mistakes and from what we’ve learned. This life is about helping others, getting as much out of it as we possibly can, and we can’t do that if we aren’t willing to give 1000% of our true self to the world. If you’re going to do something wonderful, go big. The only person stopping you from doing what you need to do is you. The brain is an amazing thing and if you allow your fear to stop you from achieving great things, you are missing out in life. No matter what has happened to you and your life, no matter what other people have said about you, no matter what you think people see you as, it is up to you if you are going to better yourself and take responsibility for your own thinking. Throw away the garbage you think about yourself. Negative thoughts should not live in your brain. Do not allow anyone the power to make you feel inferior.