Happy New Year!

It seems that New Year’s Eve is the time where people think they can start over fresh. I believe we don’t need a new year to start off fresh. Each day we make decisions that impact our lives. We can choose to let go and start over or begin again. I am going to welcome this new year knowing that I am working on myself. I am also going to do what I have always wanted to do and that is holding babies at the hospital, reading to children to take their minds off their sickness, take time to have a vacation from problems, and eventually fly to a destination that will allow me to scuba dive. Having my flight benefits back gives me a sense of freedom. I am going to step out of my box and do things I have not done but always wanted to do. I wrote about being lonely and I know we all go through that. I spoke with a my brother and a couple of friends and I have realized that my feelings are within my control. I can either choose to isolate myself from others or dive on in and make an impact. I choose to make an impact and the side effect for me will be to make new friends and not feel lonely. Lonely feelings stem from isolating oneself. There is so much out in this world that I need to explore. So, here is to 2018!

Nail hit on the head~

I heard this song called “I miss me more” by Kelsea Ballerini, I couldn’t agree more! As human beings, we sacrifice for love and for family.  What I have quote-it-s-that-wonderful-old-fashioned-idea-that-others-come-first-and-you-come-second-this-was-the-audrey-hepburn-83555discovered listening to many women is that we sacrifice ourselves.  I have experienced this over and over. Why do we do this to ourselves? To be loved? To be accepted? I am telling you that in the end, selling yourself short isn’t worth it. There are so many people in this world who are fake, who are users, who will take advantage of you, and when they are done, they are gone. I may sound like a complete cynic, but the more I listen, the more I realize.  Here is the million dollar question, “who should we trust?” What does trusting do when we discover that someone is using us? There are so many lonely people in this world. The problem is that we just don’t know what to trust. Like I said, the million dollar question is who do we trust?  So many predators out in this world make it hard to trust. I pray everyday that I don’t lose my positive attitude. I am not saying I don’t feel sad because I do. I of course feel lonely, it is a natural feeling in transition. The lonely feeling shouldn’t dictate how we make decisions. I know many people, including me, have fallen to the pitfalls of feeling lonely or scared. What I have learned is that the world doesn’t end. Yes, we get temporary loneliness and yes that sucks. Getting past this feeling is fucking hard!. You will second guess yourself!!!! I have friends who have brothers and sisters on dating sites. You will run into fake people. I will forever be a servant to those who need me and throw my own needs and wants to the wayside.


Hearty beef soup!

My mother was always the best at making soup! We had soup coming out of our ears! The soup she made was always very flavorful. So, in her honor, I am creating beautiful, colorful, flavorful soups to warm your soul. Food is more than just to be eaten.  Food is healing,  food is nourishing,  and by creating deliciously healthy food,  I hope to help others make peace with food.  Many people view food as the enemy.  I know I used to. I want to help change the view on food. The emotional aspects of eating disorders is so deep. It took me many years to confront my deep issues with food. It stems way deeper than I don’t want to gain weight. I want to create a healing cookbook. I’m going to use my grandmother’s recipes and my own creations. With the help of the flavor bible,  I will knock your socks off! A friend of mine that works in the test kitchens at General Mills, told me about this book. It’s fantastic! 

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