Inspiring…….

I get the privilege every day to see most beautiful sunsets. I am always in awe of what God allows me to see. The sheer bright whiteness of the sun tells me God is in charge. I do a sign of the cross every time I see that beautiful light shining through the clouds. It is absolutely magnificent! I look at it and sometimes, I just catch it before it disappears. I interpret it as God shining down on me and letting me know he is there and hears me. I have been so inspired to paint because of these sunsets. So, today in the midst of my errands, I decided to pull out the paint and brushes. I did get frustrated because I could not get the sunset reflection right. It looked incredibly wrong. It felt wrong. As the day went on, I let it rest and I went along my day. Then after a few hours, I pulled out the paint and just began mixing paint and brushing it on the canvas. God took my brush and I know this because he made my picture so much better than I imagined. You may be thinking I am nuts, but as I look at it, I feel he helped guide me. I know this because as I look at the sun in my picture, I feel the same awe I do when I see the sun glowing in the clouds every night. Some things you just can’t prove. I feel it. Look around you and be inspired.  There is so much in this world to notice. Get off your phone and interact with real people standing before you.  That in itself may awe you! I love you and trust you Jesus!

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Ideas implemented.

I was sitting at home really feeling like painting something. I had these ideas floating in my head. My daughter and I headed to the fabric store to find some canvases right away. I already had the paint so I was that much closer to making my vision a reality. The problem with ideas is that most of them we all have are literally gone into the air within 5 seconds of thinking it. Poof! Gone!

I knew that I needed to make a move into the implementation direction. I feel that making myself move, created momentum for other areas of my life too. Sometimes all we need is to make a small, bold move and then we changed the course of our life. A co-worker asked me, “why is it so much easier being unhealthy?” My reply was because we don’t have to force ourselves to switch directions. Being complacent is easy. I don’t want to be that person. What could’ve been, will not take over my head anymore. Create yourself, form yourself, and thrive.

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I want to have this……….

I heard some news yesterday about a man I did not have the pleasure of knowing. At work there was a man who was there for almost 30 years. His coworkers were texting him and the managers were calling him when he didn’t show up for work. Something felt off to the manager so what did he do? He left and drove over to his house to check on him and make sure he was alright. He found a half shoveled driveway, the back door open, and Mr. Pudney on the couch motionless. He had passed. He was just at work the day before. As I heard the news and the story of discovery, I couldn’t help but see the legacy he left.  He had touched profoundly everyone he interacted with. He was always in a good mood and lifted others up when they were down. I listened to everyone talk about this man yesterday. I prayed for him and I knew he would be alright in the next life. We should all strive to be like Mr. Pudney. How many managers would go check on an employee that didn’t show up? I am so glad to be part of the organization I am with. We have so many people at our station and 1 was missed so dearly. As I look at my life, I know I haven’t been the best person all  my life. We all are trying to find our way and how we fit into this world. WE all struggle with feelings of despair, hopelessness, emptiness, and loneliness. If we reach out to others and interact with them in a positive way we will leave a huge impact and possibly help fill some of those holes in ourselves and others. You just do not realize the impact we have on everyone we touch. We could give positive feelings to someone as we say hi or open the door. Everyone wants to feel valuable and at the very least acknowledged. Life is full of learning opportunities. I hope through this blog, your eyes will be opened to how you impact this world. We are individuals and we all belong to God. You are loved and precious. How are you going to impact this world today????

RIP Mr. Pudney. You are missed more than you can imagine!

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True intentions.

If you want to find out someone’s true intentions, be friends with them. Do not complicate anything with sex. I see so many times and I have experienced these, that when you add sex, things get all screwed up. Be friends with someone. Do things with them that are of the same interest. If your heart flutters, he isn’t the one. I am starting to believe that the one for me will make me feel calm. He will help calm me in times of need, be logical when I am not, we will laugh together, and I will be able to be my true self. I won’t have to hide my feelings, opinions, or anything. This will not be known unless you are friends first. What I think I mean by that, is friends for a good while, not just 3 weeks for example. As I hear others talk about their relationships, I am more convinced than ever. You know what I absolutely hate? Guys that over compliment to get into your pants. Seriously men, stop that! It takes more of a genuine effort to be friends with someone. If you are not interested in the true me, then you are not going to be getting a one night stand or someone to f+%&k. No way! Women, if you want to know if a guy likes you and is interested in you, don’t give your body freely. If they leave when you don’t give it up, then they were always going to leave. Men, respect women! If you need to just use them, remember, they are someone’s daughter, sister, ,mother, friend. Be respectful and just walk away before you hurt them deeply.

Respect one another.
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I totally get it…

I completely understand why people become work-aholics. Short answer, it’s safer. Relationships are hard, people use one another, and it’s messy. Keeping it simple and working will save the feelings of rejection, complication, whatever you are feeling, but may give you feelings of emptiness. You may feel like you are missing something but that something is painful and you are shielding yourself from pain to exchange it for another. What is the answer? I don’t fucking know. Which way are you going to give yourself or slice yourself up in a manner of speaking. Maybe I will just go hold babies at the hospital. That is an easy answer huh? They snuggle, don’t use you, and you feel useful. At least if you get fucked over at work, it didn’t involve your personal intimate feelings.
Have a great night.
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Spring Fever!

Yesterday felt magnificent! I was so in love with the weather! The sun out made me so happy and everyone I saw, I smiled big at! It is amazing what perspective can do. A few days ago it was way below zero. The 24 degrees and sun yesterday felt so incredibly warm. I opened the windows to my truck and enjoyed the breeze. Now, someone who lives in the south may think I am off my rocker, but to the folks up here, it was practically t-shirt weather! In life, we all have different perspectives. We all have different experiences in our lives that shape our perspective. I believe it is important to talk to others, hear their stories, and listen to their perspectives. Hearing the different stories can also influence our perspectives too. We can form our thought process using other people’s experiences and lessons they learned in life. Go out and explore this fabulous world!
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I’m glad I did.

I was in my living room last night when a friend of mine called. I was invited to go workout, pass and everything taken care of. I said an immediate “no thank you, I would love to but…..” After the words slipped out of my mouth, I said “wait, I will call you back in 10 minutes and give you an answer if I can find my workout clothes.” She said ok. I am glad I got out of my comfortable house and just showed up. At first I really didn’t want to go because it took effort. My words of wisdom hit me in the face and I followed my own advice. I braved the bitter cold and got my butt to the gym. The first 10 minutes on a machine seemed like it took forever, then I said let’s hit a mile and then we can stop. We hit a mile, went on another machine which went faster. Then we hit the weights. I could barely make it through the first 10 min without wanting to quit and before you know it, we were there for 90 min! It felt great!!! I was so glad we pushed each other. We all need to get uncomfortable and push not only ourselves, but others. It is amazing what happens with a little bit of encouragement. Simple steps of just showing up can be life changing! Most people don’t show up and then they never experience change.

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