Inspiring…….

I get the privilege every day to see most beautiful sunsets. I am always in awe of what God allows me to see. The sheer bright whiteness of the sun tells me God is in charge. I do a sign of the cross every time I see that beautiful light shining through the clouds. It is absolutely magnificent! I look at it and sometimes, I just catch it before it disappears. I interpret it as God shining down on me and letting me know he is there and hears me. I have been so inspired to paint because of these sunsets. So, today in the midst of my errands, I decided to pull out the paint and brushes. I did get frustrated because I could not get the sunset reflection right. It looked incredibly wrong. It felt wrong. As the day went on, I let it rest and I went along my day. Then after a few hours, I pulled out the paint and just began mixing paint and brushing it on the canvas. God took my brush and I know this because he made my picture so much better than I imagined. You may be thinking I am nuts, but as I look at it, I feel he helped guide me. I know this because as I look at the sun in my picture, I feel the same awe I do when I see the sun glowing in the clouds every night. Some things you just can’t prove. I feel it. Look around you and be inspired.  There is so much in this world to notice. Get off your phone and interact with real people standing before you.  That in itself may awe you! I love you and trust you Jesus!

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Ideas implemented.

I was sitting at home really feeling like painting something. I had these ideas floating in my head. My daughter and I headed to the fabric store to find some canvases right away. I already had the paint so I was that much closer to making my vision a reality. The problem with ideas is that most of them we all have are literally gone into the air within 5 seconds of thinking it. Poof! Gone!

I knew that I needed to make a move into the implementation direction. I feel that making myself move, created momentum for other areas of my life too. Sometimes all we need is to make a small, bold move and then we changed the course of our life. A co-worker asked me, “why is it so much easier being unhealthy?” My reply was because we don’t have to force ourselves to switch directions. Being complacent is easy. I don’t want to be that person. What could’ve been, will not take over my head anymore. Create yourself, form yourself, and thrive.

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Who we think we are, defines us.

I have different views of who I think I am. If I go back to grade school, I can still hear some of the kids who were mean to me, the girls who were cruel to me in middle school, and the kids that talked behind my back in high school. If I allow those feelings and words to drive me, I will be what I think they think of me. It took me years to get those thoughts and feelings under control. I went through life hating my nose for instance. I was always told it was too big and it made me ugly. Kids can be cruel and kids also can say things that are mean maybe because they feel bad about themselves. We just don’t know what is going on in their head and therefore, we can’t allow it to rule our heads either. You are not who you think other people think you are. One freedom I have found in my 40’s is, I can be the person I want to be. I had a boyfriend tell me in the last year that if another guy saw me naked, he would never call me again. Those words hurt, however, as I looked at the person saying it, I wondered if that was true, why did he want to stay with me. Of course, we are no longer together. Saying mean things to others and putting them down is a true measure of how that person views themselves. Either that, or they are just trying to control you by trying to take your self-esteem away. In any case, don’t allow it to define you. Who are you? More importantly, who are you to yourself. I got dressed up yesterday and took myself out on a date with myself. It may sound strange but if I do not value myself, why should anyone else? Love yourself truly. That is the most freeing feeling. Accepting yourself completely is what love really is. You don’t need anyone to make you whole. A life partner should add not take away. You are whole already. Make deeper connections.

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